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Pankhudi ne dheere se apni aankhein kholi. Dahlia ne use bistar par uthkar baithne mein madad kari aur pyaar se uske sar par haath phera.
Usne Pankhudi ko nehlaya aur ek sundar ki laal dress di pehen ne ko.
"Tumhe taiyaar hona hoga Pankhudi," Dahlia ne kaha, "Aaj auction hai."
Pankhudi rone lag gayi. "Please aisa mat karo Dahlia," usne kaha.
"Master ka order hai Pankhudi," Dahlia ne kaha, "Aur please co-operate karo agar tum chahti ho ki tumhari family par koi aanch na aaye."
Pankhudi Dahlia ki baat samajh gayi. Woh samajh gayi ki thi agar usne zara bhi virodh kiya to uski maa aur Palak dono ko khatra ho sakta hai.
Pankhudi ne chupchaap woh laal dress pehen li. Dahlia Pankhudi ko ek kamre le le gayi jahan ek makeup artist uska intezaar kar rahi thi. Us makeup artist ne Pankhudi ke sundar sa makeup aur hair styling kari. Pankhudi ne aaine mein dekha to woh itni sundar kabhi nahi lagi. Lekin apna hi sundar roop dekh kar uske aansu nikal aaye. Woh jaanti thi ki ab use ek cheez ki tarah becha jayega aur shayad woh Armaan ko phir kabhi nahi dekh payegi.
Pankhudi to taiyyar karke woh makeup artist wahan se chali gayi. Phir Dahlia ne Pankhudi ke haath hathkadi se uske haath peeche baandh diye. Pankhudi bas chupchaap aansu bahati rahi.
Dahlia ne Pankhudi ko pyaar se gale lagaya aur sambhala. Phir Dahlia ek injection le aayi.
"Jaanti ho yeh kya hai?" Dahlia ne Pankhudi ko injection dikhate hue kaha.
Pankhudi ne naa mein sar hilaya.
"Jab ek ladki ko auction mein becha jaata hai, woh uske liye bahot traumatic experience hota hai, jab ek bikau cheez ki tarah uspar boli lagayi jaati hai..." Dahlia ne kaha, "To use hum yeh nashe ki dawa dete hai, ladki ko kuch hosh nahi rehta aur aankhein khulti hai tab tak woh apne naye owner ke paas pahunch chuki hoti hai."
Pankhudi nam aankhon se uski baat sun rahi thi.
"Lekin aaj mein tumhe yeh injection nahi dungi, Pankhudi," Dahlia ne kaha, "Main chahti hun ki tum poore hosh mein raho. Ek aakhri mauka hai tumhare paas tumhare Master se communicate karne ka. Agar pichli raat maine tumhe neend ka injection deke nahi sulaya hota to shayad aaj baat yahan tak nahi pahunchti. You need to talk to him, Pankhudi, you need to tell him how you feel."
"Maine unse kaise baat karungi?" Pankhudi ne poocha.
"Apni aankhon se," Dahlia ne muskurate hue kaha, "You have to be very strong Pankhudi. Aaj tak humne kisi ladki ko auction mein bina nashe ke nahi behja, kyunki auction ke dauran hosh mei rehna bahot traumatic hota hai, lekin agar maine tumhe aaj yeh nashe ka injection diya to tum kabhi wapas nahi aa paogi. Kya tum handle kar paogi Pankhudi?"
Pankhudi ne haan me sar hilaya, aur Dahlia ne woh injection tray mein wapas rakh diya. Dahlia Pankhudi ko ek gaadi tak le gayi aur use sambhal ke gaadi mein bithaya. Pankhudi ke sar par ek hood lagaya gaya. Ab Pankhudi ko kuch dikhai nahi de raha tha, lekin woh poori hosh mein thi.
"May God protect you," Dahlia ne kaha, aur uski aankhon se ek aansu gir pada, yeh sochkar ki Pankhudi par kya beetne waali hai.
Pankhudi lagbhag ek hafte tak continously nashe mein rehne ke baad ab poori tarah se hosh mein thi. Woh apne haas paas ke har ek aahat, har ek harkat mehsoos kar rahi thi. Uske mann mein bahot darr tha ki na jaane uske saath ab kya hone wala hai.
Gaadi kaafi der tak chali. Phir ek jagah ruk gayi. Pankhudi ko ghaseetkar gaadi se nikalkar ek kamre tak le jaya gaya. Wahan kamre mein andar dhakel kar darwaza band kar diya gaya. Pankhudi ke chehre par abhi bhi woh hood tha. Use kuch dikhai nahi de raha tha, lekin apne aas paas bahot se ladkiyon ki rone ki awaz sunai de rahi thi. Pankhudi ka dil zor zor se dhadakne laga.
Kuch der baad darwaza khula aur kuch aadmi aaye aur ek ladki ko ghaseetkar leke gaye. Us ladki ki cheekhin sunkar Pankhudi kaanp uthi. Ek ek karke bahot saari ladkiyon ko le jaya gaya us kamre se.
Phir woh pal aaya jiska Pankhudi ko darr tha. Ek aadmi ne uske baju ko thaamkar use stage par le gaya. Uske chehre se woh hood hayata gaya, aur bright spotlight padi Pankhudi par. Wahan bahot saare log the, lekin Pankhudi par itni bright light pad rahi thi ki woh kisi ka chehra theek se nahi dekh paa rahi thi. Wahan bahot shor tha. Pankhudi wahan akele kaanpti hui khadi thi, aur uspar boli lagne lagi. Uska dil yeh sochkar toot gaya ki woh ab Armaan ko dobara kabhi nahi dekh payegi. Usne Armaan ko apna sab kuch de diya aur usne Pankhudi se goodbye tak nahi kaha. Uska dil toot raha tha, uska bharosa toot raha tha, Pankhudi ko itna dard hua ki woh phoot phhotkar rote hue apne ghuton ke bal gir padi.
Uski yeh halat dekh kar auction mein aaye logon ka interest usme achank se badh gaya, aur boli bahot unchi lagne lagi. Bright se spotlight mein uske massom chehre par toote hue dil ka dard saaf dikhai de raha tha.
Armaan door khada dekh raha tha. Bids itni unchi uthne lagi jitne kabhi kisi slave ke liye nahi uthi thi. Armaan ne Pankhudi ke lagatar badhti hui bids waale screen par dekha, aur ek taraf us tooti hui massom ladki ki taraf dekha jisne use pyaar diya lekin badle mein usne yahan laake khada kar diya, ek jaanwron ki bheed ke beech jo Pankhudi ko noch khane ke liye koi bhi keemat dene ko taiyyar the. Pankhudi bebas aankhon se us bheed me Armaan ko khoj rahi thi. Uski aankhon mein abhi bhi umeend nazar aa rahi thi ki Armaan use bacha lega. Armaan ko ehsaas hua ki boli Pankhudi ke chehre ya jism ke nahi lag rahi thi, uski masoomiyat ki lag rahi thi, uske pyaar bhare dil ke liye jag rahi thi jo uske liye dhadak raha tha. Uski aankhein Armaan se pooch rahi thi ki kyu itna pyaar karne ke bawajood usne uske saath itna bura kiya.
Armaan ne ek apne ek aadmi ko bulaya aur uske kaan mein kuch kaha. Woh aadmi haan mein sar hilakar waha se chala gaya. Stage par Pankhudi ekdum toot chuki thi. Armaan ke bina uske jeevan mein kuch nahi tha. Us se hamesha ke liye door jaane ke khayal se woh itni toot gayi ki behosh hokar gir padi.
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Armaan ne Dahlia ko bulaya.
"Pankhudi poori tarah se hosh mein thi," Armaan ne gusse se kaha, "Tumhe order kiya tha maine use nashe ka injection dene ka."
Dahlia sar jhukakar khadi rahi.
"I am sorry, Master," Dahlia ne kaha, "Mujhe jo theek laga maine kiya."
"Tum jaanti ho na order na man ke ka anjaam kya hota hai?" Armaan ne kaha.
"Jaanti hun Master," Dahlia ne kaha, "Aap jo saza denge woh majoor hogi."
"Apne liye na sahi, kam se kam uska to socha hota," Armaan ne gusse se kaha, "Jaanti ho kya halat ho gayi thi uski wahan? Kitna dard, kitni takleef hui use! Kitna royi, kitna tadpi woh!"
"Pankhudi ke liye hi kiya maine yeh sab. Main bas chahti thi ki aapko uski takleef, uske aansu dikahi de, Master," Dahlia ne jhuki hui nazron se kaha, "Ab aage aapki jaisi marzi."
Armaan uski baat sunke ekdum shaant ho gaya. Bina kuch kahe hi woh wahan se chala gaya.
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Dheere dheere Pankhudi ne apni aankhein kholi. Uski nazar dhundhli thi, lekin use Armaan ke apne paas hone ka ehsaas hua.
"Kya tum theek ho Pankhudi?" Armaan ne poocha.
Pankhudi Armaan ko dekh ke muskurayi. Usne Armaan ko gale lagaya. Usne apne aas paas dekha toh woh ek sundar se kamre me thi. Ek khidki se sooraj ki suneri roshni aa rahi thi.
"Main bilkul theek hun," Pankhudi ne kaha, "Tumhari baahon mein jo hun. Main jaanti hun, tum mujhse kitna pyaar karte ho, meri kitni parwah karte hi. Aise hi mujhe apni baahon mein liye raho hamesha ke liye...Kitna khoobsoorat sapna hai yeh, main kabhi nahi jaagna chahti..."
"Pankhudi yeh sapna nahi hai," Armaan ne kaha, "Haqeeqat hai. Tum yaha ho mere saath..."
"Nahi yeh haqeeqat nahi ho sakti," Pankhudi ne kaha, "Yeh ek sapna hai, dekho sooraj ki roshni hai, mere haath pair janeeron se jakde hue nahi hai, tum yahan mere paas ho, mujhe pyaar se apni baahon mein liye... haqeeqat me to, bas ek andhera kamra hai, wahan na sooraj ki roshni hai, na aazadi hai, na pyaar hai...aur tum mujhse bahot naaraz ho, jab main is khoobsoorat sapne se jagungi to main kahin bahot door hongi, tumhe kabhi nahi dekh paungi, aur mere saath kuch bahot bura hoga...please...mujhe is sapne se kabhi nahi jaagna hai..."
Pankhudi Armaan ki baahon mein apna sar chupakar rone lagi.
"Pankhudi yeh ek..." Armaan ne kaha.
"Ek khoobroorat sapna hai," Pankhudi ne kaha, "Jaise woh jungle wala sapna...pata hai ek baar maine sapna dekha tha, ki hum dono jungle mein kho gaye the, aur humne raat mein aag jalayi thi, aur maine tumhari baahon mein ek geet gaaya tha. Aur yaad hai woh jheel? Tumne mujhe daraya tha ki usme magarmach hai...main itna darr gayi thi...phir humne kiss kiya..."
"Pankhudi woh sapna nahi tha.." Armaan ne kaha, "Woh sach tha..."
"Aur woh beach wala sapna yaad hai..." Pankhudi ne kaha, "Hum dono paani mein khel rahe the aur ek sand castle bhi banya tha..."
Armaan ko ab chinta hone lagi thi. Armaan kabhi uske saath kisi beach par nahi gaya tha. Shayad Pankhudi ne sapna dekha tha. Pankhudi ko sapnon aur haqeeqat ke beech ka antar hi nahi samajh aa raha tha.
"Aur woh pyari se pahadi wala sapna...kitni pyari sunset dekhi thi humne..." Pankhudi ne kaha, "Aur ek baar na mere sapne me tum mere liye meri favorite cotton candy laaye the...aur humne itni baar pyaar kiya hai ki mujhe ab yaad bhi nahi"
Pankhudi ke gaalon par ek haya ki lali se chaa gayi. "Tumhara chhuna kitna pyara lagta hai mujhe...yeh sab mere sapne mein hota hai...hum saath mein hote hai, pyaar karte hai, aur mein apne dil ki saari baatein tumhe batati hun...aur yeh sapne mujhse koi nahi chheen sakta...tum mujhe bahot door bhejne waale ho...phir bhi mere sapnon mein to aaoge na?"
Armaan ko darr tha ki Pankhudi ki manasik stithi ab bahot nazuk thi. Woh sapnon aur haqeeqat mein fark hi nahi bata paa rahi thi.
"Pankhudi," Armaan ne uska chehra apni hatheiyon mein thaamte hue kaha, "Yeh sapna nahi hai Pankhudi, yeh sach hai, maine auction cancel kar diya, tumhari tadap dekhi nahi gayi mujhse...tum mere saath rehna chahti ho na...main kahin nahi bhejuna tumhe, tumhe apne paas rakhunga hamesha."
Armaan ne Pankhudi ko pyaar se gale lagaya. Uski aankhein nam thi. Use bahot guilt ho raha tha. Woh samjah hi nahi paa raha tha ki woh kya kar raha hai, aur kyu.
"Yeh sapna nahi hai?" Pankhudi ne darr ke kaha, "Lekin haqeeqat mein to mujhe bolne ki permission hi nahi hai...aur maine itni saari baatein ki...oh my God! I am so sorry...please mujhe punish mat karo...mujha laga ki main sapna dekh rahi hun...mujhe kuch samajh mein nahi aa raha..."
Armaan ne us gale lagakar shaant kiya.
"Nahi punish karunga Pankhudi," Armaan ne use pyaar se chumte hue kaha, "Main bahot hurt kiya hai tumhe. Ab aur nahi karunga."
Armaan use pyaar se sehlata raha jab tak woh shaant nahi hui. Phir Pankhudi ne apne aansu pooche aur Armaan ko dekh kar muskurayi. Usne chaaron taraf nazar pheri to dekha ki woh ek alag kamre me hai.
"Yeh to bahot sundar kamra hai," Pankhudi ne kaha.
"Yeh mera bedroom hai Pankhudi," Armaan ne kaha, "Mera personal space. Yahan mein kisi ko nahi aane deta. Lekin tumhe le aaya hun, kyunki tum special ho. Go on, have a look."
Pankhudi uthi aur us sundar kamre mein rakhi har cheez ko niharne lagi. Bahot sundar saza hua karma tha. Furniture exquisite tha, mehengi wooden flooring thi, ceiling par ek sundar sa jhoomar laga hua tha. Ek taraf ek bookshelf tha, jisme Armaan ki favorite books thi.
Bed bahot bada aur sundar tha. Upar soft satin sheets lagi hui thi. Pankhudi ne pyaar se unpar haath phera. Bed ke paas ek side table par ek table lamp tha, aur lamp ke paas ek photo frame tha. Pankhudi ne frame uthaya aur tasveer ko gaur se dekhne lagi. Ek pyari se baachi thi us frame me, apne teddy bear ko gale lagaye muskura rahi thi. Pankhudi ne apni ungliyan us tasveer par pheri aur muskurayi.
Armaan ne woh frame Pankhudi ke haath se le liya aur wapas table par rakh diya.
"Use mat chhedo," Armaan ne kaha.
Pankhudi ne baat maan li aur kamre explore karti rahi. Bed ke paas ek glass enclosure mein Armaan ka bicchu tha. Pankhudi ne use gaur se dekha, to woh halke peele rang ka tha, aur us bicchu ke pincers bahot patle the, Pankhudi ki nazuk ungliyon ki tarah.
"That's the Deathstalker," Armaan ne kaha, "Duniya ke sabse khatarnak bicchuon me se ek hai. Bahot zehrila hota hai iska dank. But mere saare pet scorpions me yeh mera personal favorite hai."
"Tum bicchu paalte ho?" Pankhudi ne hairani poocha.
"Haan," Armaan ne kaha, "Ek kamre mein isi tarah ke enclosures mein rakhe hue mere paas alag alag species ke bicchu hai. Kuch zehrili makdiyan bhi hai. Mujhe arachnids acche lagte hai. They are amazing predators."
"Kaat te nahi hai tumne yeh bicchu?" Pankhudi ne poocha.
"Bilkul kaat te hai. Kayi baar kaata hai. Adat si hai mujhe," Armaan ne kaha.
"Aur tumne itna kharatnak bicchu apne bedroom mein rakha hua hai?" Pankhudi ne poocha, "Darr nahi lagta?"
"Khatarank to tum bhi ho Pankhudi," Armaan ne muskurakar kaha.
Pankhudi ko samajh nahi aa raha tha ki Armaan ki is baat par woh kaise react kare. But Armaan use itne pyaar se dekh raha tha ki woh sharma gayi.
Armaan ne curtain khola aur sooraj ki roshni se kamra bhar gaya. Pankhudi ke dekha ki Armaan ke bedroom se attached ek terrace hai. Ek kaanch ki deewar thi bedroom aur terrace ko seperate karte hue. Armaan ne kaanch ka darwaza khola aur Pankhudi terrace ki taraf badhi. Wahan se ek sundar se samundar kinare ki nazara dikh raha tha. Samudri hawa ki khusboo Pankhudi ko bahot emotional kar deti. Uska gaanv bhi samundar kinare basa hua tha jaha uska bachpan beeta.
Armaan peeche se aa kar apne haath Pankhudi ke kamar par lapet liye.
"Kitna sundar hai sab kuch," Pankhudi ne kaha, "Kya yeh haqeeqat hai? Ya main phir se sapna dekh rahi hun?"
"This is all real, cupcake," Armaan ne use pyaar se chumte hue kaha.
Armaan aur Pankhudi ne terrace par khade rehkar sunset dekhi. Itni sundar nazara Pankhudi ko kayi dino baad dikh raha tha. Itne dino se to woh us andhere kamre mein band thi jahan use din ya raat tak ka pata nahi chalta tha.
Dekhte hi dekhte andhera ho gaya. Dono wapas bedroom mein aa gaye.
"Tumhe kuch dikhata hun," Armaan ne ek UV torch on karte hue kaha, "Scorpions UV light mein glow karte hai, dekho."
Pankhudi ne dhyaan se dekha Armaan ka pet scorpion, ekdum se neele hare rang mein chamakne laga.
"Bahot pyara hai yeh," Pankhudi ne kaha, "Aur khatarnak bhi."
"Woh to hai," Armaan ne kaha, "Hey, ise kuch khilana chahogi?"
Pankhudi ne gaur kiya ki Armaan ki aankhon mein ek childish excitement.
"Kya khata hai yeh?" Pankhudi ne poocha.
"Insects, cockroaches," Armaan ne kaha, "Ruko ek cockroach le aata hun apne scorpion ke liye."
"Nahi please," Pankhudi ne darr ke kaha, "Mujhe cockroach se bahot darr lagta hai."
Armaan hasne laga. Woh yeh sochkar hairaan reh gaya ki yeh ladki jo ek aadmi ki khoon karne ki himmat rakhti hai, woh cockroach se darti hai.
"Use kitna akelapan mehsoos hota hoga na wahan," Pankhudi ne innocently Armaan se poocha, "Iske liye ek girlfriend kyu nahi laate?"
Armaan muskuraya. "Jaanti ho female scorpions kitni aggressive hoti hai?" Armaan ne kaha, "Arachnid world mein females decide karti hai unko kiske saath sex karna hai. Agar use male pasand na aaye to woh use jaan se maar daalti hai."
Armaan Pankhudi ko ghoorta raha. Pankhudi samajh gayi Armaan ka ishara kis taraf hai. Pankhudi ke aankhon mein aansu aa gaye.
"I am sorry," Pankhudi ne kaha.
Armaan ne use ekdum se bistar par dhakel diya aur use passionately kiss karne laga.
"Tumne Rihaan ko sirf isiliye maar daala kyunki tum nahi chahti ki me mere siwa koi aur tumhe chhue," Armaan ne use passionately choomte hue kaha, "Kyu Pankhudi, kyu chahti ho mujhe itna? Maine tumpar itne julm kiya lekin tumhe kabhi mujhpar attack nahi kiya, mujhse ladhne ki koshish nahi kari. Itna to main jaanta hun ki tum kamjor abla bilkul nahi ho. Apne haq ka liye ladhna jaanti ho. Tumhari marzi ke khilaaf koi tumhe chhue to tum uski jaan bhi le sakti ho. Maine tumhare saath jo bhi kiya isme kahin na kahin tumhari marzi thi, warna tum mujhpar kabhi na kabhi attack karti zaroor. Kayi mauke the tumhare paas."
Armaan Pankhudi ko itna passionately chhu raha tha ki Pankhudi pighalne lagi. Armaan ne ek jhatke mein uski dress kheenchkar utar di aur use nanga kar diya. Woh uske boobs choosne laga.
"Bharosa hai tumpar," Pankhudi ne karahte hue jawab diya, "Yakeen hai ki tum mujhe kuch nahi hone doge."
Armaan muskuraya. Ek passion sawar ho gaya tha uske sar par. Usne Pankhudi ki taange kholi to dekha ki woh geeli thi. Usne ke jhatke mein apna lund uski chut mein ghuseda. Pankhudi ke muh se chahat bhari awazein nikal rahi thi. Armaan use zor zor se passionately chodne laga. Pankhudi ne bhi apni taange uske kamar par lapet li. Apni baahein uske gaale mein daalkar uske hoton ko chumne lagi. Dono ek doosre se itne passionately lipte pade the, ek doosre ki baahon mein pighal rahe the. Dono ko ek saath orgasm hua, aur dono ek doorse ke baahon mein lipatkar lete rahe.
"I am sorry maine tumhare liye problems khadi kar di use maarkar," Pankhudi ne kaha.
"Problems?" Armaan muskurakar bola, "Meri life ka sabse bada kaand hai yeh Pankhudi."
Pankhudi uski baat sunkar darr gayi.
"Tumhe shayad andaza nahi hai ki Rihaan kitni powerful family ko belong karta hai," Armaan ne kaha, "Uska bhai Nishant aaya tha use khojte hue. Nishaant jaanta tha ki Rihaan mere saath meeting karne mere ghar aaya hua tha."
"Phir?" Pankhudi ne darr kar poocha.
"Maine abhi ke liye situation handle kar di hai," Armaan ne kaha, "Maine Nishant ko convince kar diya ki Rihana yahan se sahi salamat nikal gaya hai. Kuch fabricated proof bhi dikhaye. Ab woh Rihaan ko duniya bhar mein khojne mein kuch dino tak busy rahega."
"Kya woh wapas aayega?" Pankhudi ne poocha.
"Haan," Armaan ne kaha, "Zaroor aayega. Jab Rihaan use kahin nahi milega tab woh mujhse dobara milne aayega. Uske baad is matter ko kaise handle karna hai yeh tab ki situation par depend karega."
"Kya woh mujhe le jayega?" Pankhudi ne dari hui aankhon se poocha.
"Main tumhe uske hawale nahi karunga Pankhudi," Armaan ne kaha, "Us se accha hoga ki main tumhe goli maar du. Aasaan maut hogi."
Pankhudi ne darr kar apni aankhein band kar li. Jab aankein kholi toh Armaan use dekh kar muskura raha tha.
"Main tumhe kuch nahi hone dunga, meri sweet cupcake," Armaan ne kaha.
Pankhudi sharmkar Armaan ki baahon mein sama gayi. Armaan uski zulfon mein apni ungliyan pherta raha.
Armaan ko uski gardan par woh cigarette se jalne ka nishaan dekha. Use guilty feel hua aur uski aankhon mein aansu aa gaye. Usne us nishaan ko ek halki ungli se chua aur ek darknaak yaad uske aankhon ke saamne aa gayi.
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Armaan ek andheri jagah par bandha pada tha. Uske haath aur pair janeeron se jakde hue the. Wahan bahot andhera tha, kuch dikhai nahi de raha tha.
Usne madad ke liye awaz lagayi lekin kisi ne bhi jawab nahi diya. Chuhon ke awaz aa rahi thi uske charon taraf. Aur metal chains ki awaz jab usne apne upar chal rahe cockroaches ho hatane ki koshish ki. Use bahot bhookh lagi hui thi. Woh simatkar zameen par hi let gaya, is umeed main ki pet se uth raha bhookh ka dard kam ho. Use thand lag rahi thi aur uska shareer kaanp raha tha.
Thodi der mein kadmon ki aahat sunai di. Ek aurat aa rahi thi. Usne light jalayi aur us basement mein ek peela bulb jalne laga.
"Kaisa hai mera drug addict rat?" us aurat ne ek meethi awaz mein kaha, "Bhook lagi hogi na? Yeh lo, kha lo."
Us aurat ne ek plate mein ek jali hui roti saamne rakha.
"Please mom," Armaan ne kaha, "Main jala khua khana nahi kha paunga."
"Kitni baar kaha hai tujhse mujhe mom mat bulaya kar," woh aurat gusse se boli, "Maa nahi hun main teri, saale randi ki aulaad."
Armaan ke aankhon se ek aasnu gir pada. Use bahot bhookh lagi thi.
"Tere baap ko main baccha nahi de paayi to usne rakhail paal li," woh aurat boli, "Aur tu, saale gutter ki paidaish, tu banega karodon ki jaidad ka eklauta waaris? Kabhi kabhi mann karta hai ki tujhe bhi phook diya hota teri maa ke saath, lekin tere baap ko teri bahot chinta hai, isiliye zinda rakha hai tujhe. Chal kha le chup chaap."
Armaan bas simat kar baith gaya tha.
"To tu aise nahi maanega huh?" woh aurat boli, "Ruk jaa abhi batati hun."
Woh seedhiyon se upar chali gayi aur kuch der baar lauti ek garam sariya lekar. Usne Armaan ke seene par woh sariya chua diya. Armaan cheekha.
"Fuck you bitch!" Armaan ne kaha, "Papa ko pata chala na, tu dekh tera kya haal karenge woh."
"Ek number ka kamina hai tera baap," woh aurat muskurakar boli, "Lekin ek number ka chutiya bhi hai. Use laga tha mujhe pata nahi chalega rakhail ke baare mein. Saali thi to bahot khoobsoorat, teri randi maa, teri yeh khoobsoorat shakal tujhe teri maa se hi mili hai. Khair, jab maine jinda jalaya tha na use, to roti gidgidati bhi bahot khoobsoorat lagi thi. Tu bhi tha wahin, paalne mein. Ek baar to mann kiya tujhe bhi jala dun, lekin tujhe bachpan mein hi maar deti to Mathur saab koi nayi rakhail paal lete aur tere jaisa ek aur haramzaada paida kar lete...phir kitno ko maarti phirti main?"
Armaan ki aankhon mein aansu aa gayi apni maa ke maut ke baare mein jaankar. Saath hi bahot gussa bhi aaya.
"Tere baap ko pata bhi nahi chala ki unki rakhail ko kisne maara. Aur maine ek adarsh biwi ki tarah is dukh mein unka saath diya, aur ko convince kiya ki hum tumhe goad le lenge, main tumhe maa ka pyaar dungi" woh aurat boli, "Kayi saalon tak ek acchi maa hone ka natak karna pada, aur jab mere patidev videsh gaye paise kamane ke liye, tujhe mere bharose chhod gaye. Ab main jo chahun tere saath kar sakti hun."
Armaan apni janjeeron mein sangharsh karne laga. Uski aankhon mein tez gussa tha.
"Aye haye, gussa to dekho sahabjaade ka," woh aurat haskar boli, "Kuch nahi kar sakta tu. Teri yeh jo drugs ki lat hai na, iske baare mein sabko pata hai. Maine sabko bataya hai ki tujhe drug rehab centre mein bheja gaya hai. Ab yeh sabko thodi na pata hai ki tujhe yeh lat maine hi lagwayi hai. Dawai dene ke bahane drugs ke injection lagaye the maine tujhe. Ab tu kisi se kuch bhi kahe, koi teri kisi baat par yakeen nahi karega. Kyunki sabki nazar main main ek acchi maa hun, aur tu ek bigda hua drug addict beta. Sab yahi samjhenge ki drug ki lat ke wajah se tera dimag kharab ho gaya hai."
Woh aurat pagalon ki tarah hasne lagi. Usne woh garam sariye se Armaan ko baar baar chukar jalaya.
"Dard ke adat daal le," woh muskurate hue boli, "Tujhe tadpane mein maza aata hai mujhe. Aur agle mahine tera eighteenth birthday hai, tu apne doston ke saath party karne jayega, aur apni adat ke mutabik phir drugs lega, lekin iss baar kuch jyada hi le lega, aur agli din subah teri laash milegi."
"You bitch!" Armaan chillaya. Woh samajh gaya tha ki usne use maar daalne ka plan banaya hai.
"Sab log aake shok jatayenge," woh boli, "Bechari maa, jis bete ko itne saalon se pyaar se paala woh apni drug habit ki wajah se duniya se chala gaya. Teri maut ki khabar sunkar tere papa videsh senlaut aayenge aur unko itna gehra sadma lagega ki woh ek hafte ke andar unko bhi dil ka daura padega aur woh bhi mujhe is duniya mein akele chhodkar chale jayenge."
Armaan samajh gaya tha ki uski sauteli maa ne ne uski poori family ko khatam karke unki daulat hatiyae ka plan banaya tha. Use bahot dard ho raha tha. Bhookh bhi lagi thi. Lekin us se jyada gussa tha uske andar.
"Toh yeh sab tune paise ke liye kiya?" Armaan gusse se bola, "Saali gutter ki raand, paise ke liye meri beqasoor maa ko maar daala, mujhe drug addict bana diya, itna torture kiya, aur teri itni himmat ki papa ko bhi maar daalne ki dhamki de rahi hai? Ab main bhi dekhta hun ki jis daulat ke tu sapne dekh rahi hai woh kaise tujhe milti hai. Ek phooti kaudi nahi lagne dunga tere haath!"
Armaan ki aankhon mein ek aag thi. Woh aurat muskurayi aur Armaan ke baal pakadke woh sariya uski aankh ke paas le aayi. "Beta zinda rahega to kuch kar payega na?" woh boli, "Chahu to isiliye waqt teri yeh do khoobsoorat aankehin fod du, phir kis kaam aayegi tere yeh karodon ki daulat? Aankhein neechi kar, suar kahin ke!"
Woh sariya Armaan ki aankh on ke itne nazdeek padki hui thi ki Armaan shaant ho gaya. Woh samajh gaya ki is waqt woh ladhne ki position mein nahi tha. Usne apni aankhein neechi kar di.
"Chal ab woh roti kha," woh aurat boli, "Kya zamana aa gaya hai. Maa ke haathon ka bana khana accha nahi lagta aaj kal ke bigde hue baachon ko."
Armaan bas use gusse se ghoorta raha.
"Nahi khayega?" woh aurat haskar boli, "Theek hai mat kha. Chuhe kha lenge. Aaj ke baad nahi laungi tere liye khana. Phir bhookh se tadpega tab akal thikane aayegi."
Usne woh roti uthake ek taraf phenk di aur kuch chuhe use khane lag gaye. Usne light bujha di, aur Armaan ko bhookh aur dard se tadapne ke liye chhod diya.
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Pankhudi ne dekha ki Armaan uski baahon mein aankhein munde leta hai aur kaanp raha hai. Usne pyaar se haath phera use sar par. Armaan ne aankhein kholi to uski aankhon mein aansu the. Pankhudi ne pehli baar Armaan ki aankhon mein aansu dekhe.
"Kya tum theek ho?" Pankhudi ne bade pyaar se poocha.
"Nahi, Pankhudi," Armaan ne kaapnti hui awaz me jawab diya, "Maine theek nahi hun, main bilkul uske jaisa ban gaya hun."
"Kiske jaisa?" Pankhudi ne poocha.
Armaan ne koi jawab nahi diya. Woh bas Pankhudi ko apni baahon me liye, annkhein moonde leta raha.
Pankhudi ne dheere se apni aankhein kholi. Dahlia ne use bistar par uthkar baithne mein madad kari aur pyaar se uske sar par haath phera.
Usne Pankhudi ko nehlaya aur ek sundar ki laal dress di pehen ne ko.
"Tumhe taiyaar hona hoga Pankhudi," Dahlia ne kaha, "Aaj auction hai."
Pankhudi rone lag gayi. "Please aisa mat karo Dahlia," usne kaha.
"Master ka order hai Pankhudi," Dahlia ne kaha, "Aur please co-operate karo agar tum chahti ho ki tumhari family par koi aanch na aaye."
Pankhudi Dahlia ki baat samajh gayi. Woh samajh gayi ki thi agar usne zara bhi virodh kiya to uski maa aur Palak dono ko khatra ho sakta hai.
Pankhudi ne chupchaap woh laal dress pehen li. Dahlia Pankhudi ko ek kamre le le gayi jahan ek makeup artist uska intezaar kar rahi thi. Us makeup artist ne Pankhudi ke sundar sa makeup aur hair styling kari. Pankhudi ne aaine mein dekha to woh itni sundar kabhi nahi lagi. Lekin apna hi sundar roop dekh kar uske aansu nikal aaye. Woh jaanti thi ki ab use ek cheez ki tarah becha jayega aur shayad woh Armaan ko phir kabhi nahi dekh payegi.
Pankhudi to taiyyar karke woh makeup artist wahan se chali gayi. Phir Dahlia ne Pankhudi ke haath hathkadi se uske haath peeche baandh diye. Pankhudi bas chupchaap aansu bahati rahi.
Dahlia ne Pankhudi ko pyaar se gale lagaya aur sambhala. Phir Dahlia ek injection le aayi.
"Jaanti ho yeh kya hai?" Dahlia ne Pankhudi ko injection dikhate hue kaha.
Pankhudi ne naa mein sar hilaya.
"Jab ek ladki ko auction mein becha jaata hai, woh uske liye bahot traumatic experience hota hai, jab ek bikau cheez ki tarah uspar boli lagayi jaati hai..." Dahlia ne kaha, "To use hum yeh nashe ki dawa dete hai, ladki ko kuch hosh nahi rehta aur aankhein khulti hai tab tak woh apne naye owner ke paas pahunch chuki hoti hai."
Pankhudi nam aankhon se uski baat sun rahi thi.
"Lekin aaj mein tumhe yeh injection nahi dungi, Pankhudi," Dahlia ne kaha, "Main chahti hun ki tum poore hosh mein raho. Ek aakhri mauka hai tumhare paas tumhare Master se communicate karne ka. Agar pichli raat maine tumhe neend ka injection deke nahi sulaya hota to shayad aaj baat yahan tak nahi pahunchti. You need to talk to him, Pankhudi, you need to tell him how you feel."
"Maine unse kaise baat karungi?" Pankhudi ne poocha.
"Apni aankhon se," Dahlia ne muskurate hue kaha, "You have to be very strong Pankhudi. Aaj tak humne kisi ladki ko auction mein bina nashe ke nahi behja, kyunki auction ke dauran hosh mei rehna bahot traumatic hota hai, lekin agar maine tumhe aaj yeh nashe ka injection diya to tum kabhi wapas nahi aa paogi. Kya tum handle kar paogi Pankhudi?"
Pankhudi ne haan me sar hilaya, aur Dahlia ne woh injection tray mein wapas rakh diya. Dahlia Pankhudi ko ek gaadi tak le gayi aur use sambhal ke gaadi mein bithaya. Pankhudi ke sar par ek hood lagaya gaya. Ab Pankhudi ko kuch dikhai nahi de raha tha, lekin woh poori hosh mein thi.
"May God protect you," Dahlia ne kaha, aur uski aankhon se ek aansu gir pada, yeh sochkar ki Pankhudi par kya beetne waali hai.
Pankhudi lagbhag ek hafte tak continously nashe mein rehne ke baad ab poori tarah se hosh mein thi. Woh apne haas paas ke har ek aahat, har ek harkat mehsoos kar rahi thi. Uske mann mein bahot darr tha ki na jaane uske saath ab kya hone wala hai.
Gaadi kaafi der tak chali. Phir ek jagah ruk gayi. Pankhudi ko ghaseetkar gaadi se nikalkar ek kamre tak le jaya gaya. Wahan kamre mein andar dhakel kar darwaza band kar diya gaya. Pankhudi ke chehre par abhi bhi woh hood tha. Use kuch dikhai nahi de raha tha, lekin apne aas paas bahot se ladkiyon ki rone ki awaz sunai de rahi thi. Pankhudi ka dil zor zor se dhadakne laga.
Kuch der baad darwaza khula aur kuch aadmi aaye aur ek ladki ko ghaseetkar leke gaye. Us ladki ki cheekhin sunkar Pankhudi kaanp uthi. Ek ek karke bahot saari ladkiyon ko le jaya gaya us kamre se.
Phir woh pal aaya jiska Pankhudi ko darr tha. Ek aadmi ne uske baju ko thaamkar use stage par le gaya. Uske chehre se woh hood hayata gaya, aur bright spotlight padi Pankhudi par. Wahan bahot saare log the, lekin Pankhudi par itni bright light pad rahi thi ki woh kisi ka chehra theek se nahi dekh paa rahi thi. Wahan bahot shor tha. Pankhudi wahan akele kaanpti hui khadi thi, aur uspar boli lagne lagi. Uska dil yeh sochkar toot gaya ki woh ab Armaan ko dobara kabhi nahi dekh payegi. Usne Armaan ko apna sab kuch de diya aur usne Pankhudi se goodbye tak nahi kaha. Uska dil toot raha tha, uska bharosa toot raha tha, Pankhudi ko itna dard hua ki woh phoot phhotkar rote hue apne ghuton ke bal gir padi.
Uski yeh halat dekh kar auction mein aaye logon ka interest usme achank se badh gaya, aur boli bahot unchi lagne lagi. Bright se spotlight mein uske massom chehre par toote hue dil ka dard saaf dikhai de raha tha.
Armaan door khada dekh raha tha. Bids itni unchi uthne lagi jitne kabhi kisi slave ke liye nahi uthi thi. Armaan ne Pankhudi ke lagatar badhti hui bids waale screen par dekha, aur ek taraf us tooti hui massom ladki ki taraf dekha jisne use pyaar diya lekin badle mein usne yahan laake khada kar diya, ek jaanwron ki bheed ke beech jo Pankhudi ko noch khane ke liye koi bhi keemat dene ko taiyyar the. Pankhudi bebas aankhon se us bheed me Armaan ko khoj rahi thi. Uski aankhon mein abhi bhi umeend nazar aa rahi thi ki Armaan use bacha lega. Armaan ko ehsaas hua ki boli Pankhudi ke chehre ya jism ke nahi lag rahi thi, uski masoomiyat ki lag rahi thi, uske pyaar bhare dil ke liye jag rahi thi jo uske liye dhadak raha tha. Uski aankhein Armaan se pooch rahi thi ki kyu itna pyaar karne ke bawajood usne uske saath itna bura kiya.
Armaan ne ek apne ek aadmi ko bulaya aur uske kaan mein kuch kaha. Woh aadmi haan mein sar hilakar waha se chala gaya. Stage par Pankhudi ekdum toot chuki thi. Armaan ke bina uske jeevan mein kuch nahi tha. Us se hamesha ke liye door jaane ke khayal se woh itni toot gayi ki behosh hokar gir padi.
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Armaan ne Dahlia ko bulaya.
"Pankhudi poori tarah se hosh mein thi," Armaan ne gusse se kaha, "Tumhe order kiya tha maine use nashe ka injection dene ka."
Dahlia sar jhukakar khadi rahi.
"I am sorry, Master," Dahlia ne kaha, "Mujhe jo theek laga maine kiya."
"Tum jaanti ho na order na man ke ka anjaam kya hota hai?" Armaan ne kaha.
"Jaanti hun Master," Dahlia ne kaha, "Aap jo saza denge woh majoor hogi."
"Apne liye na sahi, kam se kam uska to socha hota," Armaan ne gusse se kaha, "Jaanti ho kya halat ho gayi thi uski wahan? Kitna dard, kitni takleef hui use! Kitna royi, kitna tadpi woh!"
"Pankhudi ke liye hi kiya maine yeh sab. Main bas chahti thi ki aapko uski takleef, uske aansu dikahi de, Master," Dahlia ne jhuki hui nazron se kaha, "Ab aage aapki jaisi marzi."
Armaan uski baat sunke ekdum shaant ho gaya. Bina kuch kahe hi woh wahan se chala gaya.
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Dheere dheere Pankhudi ne apni aankhein kholi. Uski nazar dhundhli thi, lekin use Armaan ke apne paas hone ka ehsaas hua.
"Kya tum theek ho Pankhudi?" Armaan ne poocha.
Pankhudi Armaan ko dekh ke muskurayi. Usne Armaan ko gale lagaya. Usne apne aas paas dekha toh woh ek sundar se kamre me thi. Ek khidki se sooraj ki suneri roshni aa rahi thi.
"Main bilkul theek hun," Pankhudi ne kaha, "Tumhari baahon mein jo hun. Main jaanti hun, tum mujhse kitna pyaar karte ho, meri kitni parwah karte hi. Aise hi mujhe apni baahon mein liye raho hamesha ke liye...Kitna khoobsoorat sapna hai yeh, main kabhi nahi jaagna chahti..."
"Pankhudi yeh sapna nahi hai," Armaan ne kaha, "Haqeeqat hai. Tum yaha ho mere saath..."
"Nahi yeh haqeeqat nahi ho sakti," Pankhudi ne kaha, "Yeh ek sapna hai, dekho sooraj ki roshni hai, mere haath pair janeeron se jakde hue nahi hai, tum yahan mere paas ho, mujhe pyaar se apni baahon mein liye... haqeeqat me to, bas ek andhera kamra hai, wahan na sooraj ki roshni hai, na aazadi hai, na pyaar hai...aur tum mujhse bahot naaraz ho, jab main is khoobsoorat sapne se jagungi to main kahin bahot door hongi, tumhe kabhi nahi dekh paungi, aur mere saath kuch bahot bura hoga...please...mujhe is sapne se kabhi nahi jaagna hai..."
Pankhudi Armaan ki baahon mein apna sar chupakar rone lagi.
"Pankhudi yeh ek..." Armaan ne kaha.
"Ek khoobroorat sapna hai," Pankhudi ne kaha, "Jaise woh jungle wala sapna...pata hai ek baar maine sapna dekha tha, ki hum dono jungle mein kho gaye the, aur humne raat mein aag jalayi thi, aur maine tumhari baahon mein ek geet gaaya tha. Aur yaad hai woh jheel? Tumne mujhe daraya tha ki usme magarmach hai...main itna darr gayi thi...phir humne kiss kiya..."
"Pankhudi woh sapna nahi tha.." Armaan ne kaha, "Woh sach tha..."
"Aur woh beach wala sapna yaad hai..." Pankhudi ne kaha, "Hum dono paani mein khel rahe the aur ek sand castle bhi banya tha..."
Armaan ko ab chinta hone lagi thi. Armaan kabhi uske saath kisi beach par nahi gaya tha. Shayad Pankhudi ne sapna dekha tha. Pankhudi ko sapnon aur haqeeqat ke beech ka antar hi nahi samajh aa raha tha.
"Aur woh pyari se pahadi wala sapna...kitni pyari sunset dekhi thi humne..." Pankhudi ne kaha, "Aur ek baar na mere sapne me tum mere liye meri favorite cotton candy laaye the...aur humne itni baar pyaar kiya hai ki mujhe ab yaad bhi nahi"
Pankhudi ke gaalon par ek haya ki lali se chaa gayi. "Tumhara chhuna kitna pyara lagta hai mujhe...yeh sab mere sapne mein hota hai...hum saath mein hote hai, pyaar karte hai, aur mein apne dil ki saari baatein tumhe batati hun...aur yeh sapne mujhse koi nahi chheen sakta...tum mujhe bahot door bhejne waale ho...phir bhi mere sapnon mein to aaoge na?"
Armaan ko darr tha ki Pankhudi ki manasik stithi ab bahot nazuk thi. Woh sapnon aur haqeeqat mein fark hi nahi bata paa rahi thi.
"Pankhudi," Armaan ne uska chehra apni hatheiyon mein thaamte hue kaha, "Yeh sapna nahi hai Pankhudi, yeh sach hai, maine auction cancel kar diya, tumhari tadap dekhi nahi gayi mujhse...tum mere saath rehna chahti ho na...main kahin nahi bhejuna tumhe, tumhe apne paas rakhunga hamesha."
Armaan ne Pankhudi ko pyaar se gale lagaya. Uski aankhein nam thi. Use bahot guilt ho raha tha. Woh samjah hi nahi paa raha tha ki woh kya kar raha hai, aur kyu.
"Yeh sapna nahi hai?" Pankhudi ne darr ke kaha, "Lekin haqeeqat mein to mujhe bolne ki permission hi nahi hai...aur maine itni saari baatein ki...oh my God! I am so sorry...please mujhe punish mat karo...mujha laga ki main sapna dekh rahi hun...mujhe kuch samajh mein nahi aa raha..."
Armaan ne us gale lagakar shaant kiya.
"Nahi punish karunga Pankhudi," Armaan ne use pyaar se chumte hue kaha, "Main bahot hurt kiya hai tumhe. Ab aur nahi karunga."
Armaan use pyaar se sehlata raha jab tak woh shaant nahi hui. Phir Pankhudi ne apne aansu pooche aur Armaan ko dekh kar muskurayi. Usne chaaron taraf nazar pheri to dekha ki woh ek alag kamre me hai.
"Yeh to bahot sundar kamra hai," Pankhudi ne kaha.
"Yeh mera bedroom hai Pankhudi," Armaan ne kaha, "Mera personal space. Yahan mein kisi ko nahi aane deta. Lekin tumhe le aaya hun, kyunki tum special ho. Go on, have a look."
Pankhudi uthi aur us sundar kamre mein rakhi har cheez ko niharne lagi. Bahot sundar saza hua karma tha. Furniture exquisite tha, mehengi wooden flooring thi, ceiling par ek sundar sa jhoomar laga hua tha. Ek taraf ek bookshelf tha, jisme Armaan ki favorite books thi.
Bed bahot bada aur sundar tha. Upar soft satin sheets lagi hui thi. Pankhudi ne pyaar se unpar haath phera. Bed ke paas ek side table par ek table lamp tha, aur lamp ke paas ek photo frame tha. Pankhudi ne frame uthaya aur tasveer ko gaur se dekhne lagi. Ek pyari se baachi thi us frame me, apne teddy bear ko gale lagaye muskura rahi thi. Pankhudi ne apni ungliyan us tasveer par pheri aur muskurayi.
Armaan ne woh frame Pankhudi ke haath se le liya aur wapas table par rakh diya.
"Use mat chhedo," Armaan ne kaha.
Pankhudi ne baat maan li aur kamre explore karti rahi. Bed ke paas ek glass enclosure mein Armaan ka bicchu tha. Pankhudi ne use gaur se dekha, to woh halke peele rang ka tha, aur us bicchu ke pincers bahot patle the, Pankhudi ki nazuk ungliyon ki tarah.
"That's the Deathstalker," Armaan ne kaha, "Duniya ke sabse khatarnak bicchuon me se ek hai. Bahot zehrila hota hai iska dank. But mere saare pet scorpions me yeh mera personal favorite hai."
"Tum bicchu paalte ho?" Pankhudi ne hairani poocha.
"Haan," Armaan ne kaha, "Ek kamre mein isi tarah ke enclosures mein rakhe hue mere paas alag alag species ke bicchu hai. Kuch zehrili makdiyan bhi hai. Mujhe arachnids acche lagte hai. They are amazing predators."
"Kaat te nahi hai tumne yeh bicchu?" Pankhudi ne poocha.
"Bilkul kaat te hai. Kayi baar kaata hai. Adat si hai mujhe," Armaan ne kaha.
"Aur tumne itna kharatnak bicchu apne bedroom mein rakha hua hai?" Pankhudi ne poocha, "Darr nahi lagta?"
"Khatarank to tum bhi ho Pankhudi," Armaan ne muskurakar kaha.
Pankhudi ko samajh nahi aa raha tha ki Armaan ki is baat par woh kaise react kare. But Armaan use itne pyaar se dekh raha tha ki woh sharma gayi.
Armaan ne curtain khola aur sooraj ki roshni se kamra bhar gaya. Pankhudi ke dekha ki Armaan ke bedroom se attached ek terrace hai. Ek kaanch ki deewar thi bedroom aur terrace ko seperate karte hue. Armaan ne kaanch ka darwaza khola aur Pankhudi terrace ki taraf badhi. Wahan se ek sundar se samundar kinare ki nazara dikh raha tha. Samudri hawa ki khusboo Pankhudi ko bahot emotional kar deti. Uska gaanv bhi samundar kinare basa hua tha jaha uska bachpan beeta.
Armaan peeche se aa kar apne haath Pankhudi ke kamar par lapet liye.
"Kitna sundar hai sab kuch," Pankhudi ne kaha, "Kya yeh haqeeqat hai? Ya main phir se sapna dekh rahi hun?"
"This is all real, cupcake," Armaan ne use pyaar se chumte hue kaha.
Armaan aur Pankhudi ne terrace par khade rehkar sunset dekhi. Itni sundar nazara Pankhudi ko kayi dino baad dikh raha tha. Itne dino se to woh us andhere kamre mein band thi jahan use din ya raat tak ka pata nahi chalta tha.
Dekhte hi dekhte andhera ho gaya. Dono wapas bedroom mein aa gaye.
"Tumhe kuch dikhata hun," Armaan ne ek UV torch on karte hue kaha, "Scorpions UV light mein glow karte hai, dekho."
Pankhudi ne dhyaan se dekha Armaan ka pet scorpion, ekdum se neele hare rang mein chamakne laga.
"Bahot pyara hai yeh," Pankhudi ne kaha, "Aur khatarnak bhi."
"Woh to hai," Armaan ne kaha, "Hey, ise kuch khilana chahogi?"
Pankhudi ne gaur kiya ki Armaan ki aankhon mein ek childish excitement.
"Kya khata hai yeh?" Pankhudi ne poocha.
"Insects, cockroaches," Armaan ne kaha, "Ruko ek cockroach le aata hun apne scorpion ke liye."
"Nahi please," Pankhudi ne darr ke kaha, "Mujhe cockroach se bahot darr lagta hai."
Armaan hasne laga. Woh yeh sochkar hairaan reh gaya ki yeh ladki jo ek aadmi ki khoon karne ki himmat rakhti hai, woh cockroach se darti hai.
"Use kitna akelapan mehsoos hota hoga na wahan," Pankhudi ne innocently Armaan se poocha, "Iske liye ek girlfriend kyu nahi laate?"
Armaan muskuraya. "Jaanti ho female scorpions kitni aggressive hoti hai?" Armaan ne kaha, "Arachnid world mein females decide karti hai unko kiske saath sex karna hai. Agar use male pasand na aaye to woh use jaan se maar daalti hai."
Armaan Pankhudi ko ghoorta raha. Pankhudi samajh gayi Armaan ka ishara kis taraf hai. Pankhudi ke aankhon mein aansu aa gaye.
"I am sorry," Pankhudi ne kaha.
Armaan ne use ekdum se bistar par dhakel diya aur use passionately kiss karne laga.
"Tumne Rihaan ko sirf isiliye maar daala kyunki tum nahi chahti ki me mere siwa koi aur tumhe chhue," Armaan ne use passionately choomte hue kaha, "Kyu Pankhudi, kyu chahti ho mujhe itna? Maine tumpar itne julm kiya lekin tumhe kabhi mujhpar attack nahi kiya, mujhse ladhne ki koshish nahi kari. Itna to main jaanta hun ki tum kamjor abla bilkul nahi ho. Apne haq ka liye ladhna jaanti ho. Tumhari marzi ke khilaaf koi tumhe chhue to tum uski jaan bhi le sakti ho. Maine tumhare saath jo bhi kiya isme kahin na kahin tumhari marzi thi, warna tum mujhpar kabhi na kabhi attack karti zaroor. Kayi mauke the tumhare paas."
Armaan Pankhudi ko itna passionately chhu raha tha ki Pankhudi pighalne lagi. Armaan ne ek jhatke mein uski dress kheenchkar utar di aur use nanga kar diya. Woh uske boobs choosne laga.
"Bharosa hai tumpar," Pankhudi ne karahte hue jawab diya, "Yakeen hai ki tum mujhe kuch nahi hone doge."
Armaan muskuraya. Ek passion sawar ho gaya tha uske sar par. Usne Pankhudi ki taange kholi to dekha ki woh geeli thi. Usne ke jhatke mein apna lund uski chut mein ghuseda. Pankhudi ke muh se chahat bhari awazein nikal rahi thi. Armaan use zor zor se passionately chodne laga. Pankhudi ne bhi apni taange uske kamar par lapet li. Apni baahein uske gaale mein daalkar uske hoton ko chumne lagi. Dono ek doosre se itne passionately lipte pade the, ek doosre ki baahon mein pighal rahe the. Dono ko ek saath orgasm hua, aur dono ek doorse ke baahon mein lipatkar lete rahe.
"I am sorry maine tumhare liye problems khadi kar di use maarkar," Pankhudi ne kaha.
"Problems?" Armaan muskurakar bola, "Meri life ka sabse bada kaand hai yeh Pankhudi."
Pankhudi uski baat sunkar darr gayi.
"Tumhe shayad andaza nahi hai ki Rihaan kitni powerful family ko belong karta hai," Armaan ne kaha, "Uska bhai Nishant aaya tha use khojte hue. Nishaant jaanta tha ki Rihaan mere saath meeting karne mere ghar aaya hua tha."
"Phir?" Pankhudi ne darr kar poocha.
"Maine abhi ke liye situation handle kar di hai," Armaan ne kaha, "Maine Nishant ko convince kar diya ki Rihana yahan se sahi salamat nikal gaya hai. Kuch fabricated proof bhi dikhaye. Ab woh Rihaan ko duniya bhar mein khojne mein kuch dino tak busy rahega."
"Kya woh wapas aayega?" Pankhudi ne poocha.
"Haan," Armaan ne kaha, "Zaroor aayega. Jab Rihaan use kahin nahi milega tab woh mujhse dobara milne aayega. Uske baad is matter ko kaise handle karna hai yeh tab ki situation par depend karega."
"Kya woh mujhe le jayega?" Pankhudi ne dari hui aankhon se poocha.
"Main tumhe uske hawale nahi karunga Pankhudi," Armaan ne kaha, "Us se accha hoga ki main tumhe goli maar du. Aasaan maut hogi."
Pankhudi ne darr kar apni aankhein band kar li. Jab aankein kholi toh Armaan use dekh kar muskura raha tha.
"Main tumhe kuch nahi hone dunga, meri sweet cupcake," Armaan ne kaha.
Pankhudi sharmkar Armaan ki baahon mein sama gayi. Armaan uski zulfon mein apni ungliyan pherta raha.
Armaan ko uski gardan par woh cigarette se jalne ka nishaan dekha. Use guilty feel hua aur uski aankhon mein aansu aa gaye. Usne us nishaan ko ek halki ungli se chua aur ek darknaak yaad uske aankhon ke saamne aa gayi.
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Armaan ek andheri jagah par bandha pada tha. Uske haath aur pair janeeron se jakde hue the. Wahan bahot andhera tha, kuch dikhai nahi de raha tha.
Usne madad ke liye awaz lagayi lekin kisi ne bhi jawab nahi diya. Chuhon ke awaz aa rahi thi uske charon taraf. Aur metal chains ki awaz jab usne apne upar chal rahe cockroaches ho hatane ki koshish ki. Use bahot bhookh lagi hui thi. Woh simatkar zameen par hi let gaya, is umeed main ki pet se uth raha bhookh ka dard kam ho. Use thand lag rahi thi aur uska shareer kaanp raha tha.
Thodi der mein kadmon ki aahat sunai di. Ek aurat aa rahi thi. Usne light jalayi aur us basement mein ek peela bulb jalne laga.
"Kaisa hai mera drug addict rat?" us aurat ne ek meethi awaz mein kaha, "Bhook lagi hogi na? Yeh lo, kha lo."
Us aurat ne ek plate mein ek jali hui roti saamne rakha.
"Please mom," Armaan ne kaha, "Main jala khua khana nahi kha paunga."
"Kitni baar kaha hai tujhse mujhe mom mat bulaya kar," woh aurat gusse se boli, "Maa nahi hun main teri, saale randi ki aulaad."
Armaan ke aankhon se ek aasnu gir pada. Use bahot bhookh lagi thi.
"Tere baap ko main baccha nahi de paayi to usne rakhail paal li," woh aurat boli, "Aur tu, saale gutter ki paidaish, tu banega karodon ki jaidad ka eklauta waaris? Kabhi kabhi mann karta hai ki tujhe bhi phook diya hota teri maa ke saath, lekin tere baap ko teri bahot chinta hai, isiliye zinda rakha hai tujhe. Chal kha le chup chaap."
Armaan bas simat kar baith gaya tha.
"To tu aise nahi maanega huh?" woh aurat boli, "Ruk jaa abhi batati hun."
Woh seedhiyon se upar chali gayi aur kuch der baar lauti ek garam sariya lekar. Usne Armaan ke seene par woh sariya chua diya. Armaan cheekha.
"Fuck you bitch!" Armaan ne kaha, "Papa ko pata chala na, tu dekh tera kya haal karenge woh."
"Ek number ka kamina hai tera baap," woh aurat muskurakar boli, "Lekin ek number ka chutiya bhi hai. Use laga tha mujhe pata nahi chalega rakhail ke baare mein. Saali thi to bahot khoobsoorat, teri randi maa, teri yeh khoobsoorat shakal tujhe teri maa se hi mili hai. Khair, jab maine jinda jalaya tha na use, to roti gidgidati bhi bahot khoobsoorat lagi thi. Tu bhi tha wahin, paalne mein. Ek baar to mann kiya tujhe bhi jala dun, lekin tujhe bachpan mein hi maar deti to Mathur saab koi nayi rakhail paal lete aur tere jaisa ek aur haramzaada paida kar lete...phir kitno ko maarti phirti main?"
Armaan ki aankhon mein aansu aa gayi apni maa ke maut ke baare mein jaankar. Saath hi bahot gussa bhi aaya.
"Tere baap ko pata bhi nahi chala ki unki rakhail ko kisne maara. Aur maine ek adarsh biwi ki tarah is dukh mein unka saath diya, aur ko convince kiya ki hum tumhe goad le lenge, main tumhe maa ka pyaar dungi" woh aurat boli, "Kayi saalon tak ek acchi maa hone ka natak karna pada, aur jab mere patidev videsh gaye paise kamane ke liye, tujhe mere bharose chhod gaye. Ab main jo chahun tere saath kar sakti hun."
Armaan apni janjeeron mein sangharsh karne laga. Uski aankhon mein tez gussa tha.
"Aye haye, gussa to dekho sahabjaade ka," woh aurat haskar boli, "Kuch nahi kar sakta tu. Teri yeh jo drugs ki lat hai na, iske baare mein sabko pata hai. Maine sabko bataya hai ki tujhe drug rehab centre mein bheja gaya hai. Ab yeh sabko thodi na pata hai ki tujhe yeh lat maine hi lagwayi hai. Dawai dene ke bahane drugs ke injection lagaye the maine tujhe. Ab tu kisi se kuch bhi kahe, koi teri kisi baat par yakeen nahi karega. Kyunki sabki nazar main main ek acchi maa hun, aur tu ek bigda hua drug addict beta. Sab yahi samjhenge ki drug ki lat ke wajah se tera dimag kharab ho gaya hai."
Woh aurat pagalon ki tarah hasne lagi. Usne woh garam sariye se Armaan ko baar baar chukar jalaya.
"Dard ke adat daal le," woh muskurate hue boli, "Tujhe tadpane mein maza aata hai mujhe. Aur agle mahine tera eighteenth birthday hai, tu apne doston ke saath party karne jayega, aur apni adat ke mutabik phir drugs lega, lekin iss baar kuch jyada hi le lega, aur agli din subah teri laash milegi."
"You bitch!" Armaan chillaya. Woh samajh gaya tha ki usne use maar daalne ka plan banaya hai.
"Sab log aake shok jatayenge," woh boli, "Bechari maa, jis bete ko itne saalon se pyaar se paala woh apni drug habit ki wajah se duniya se chala gaya. Teri maut ki khabar sunkar tere papa videsh senlaut aayenge aur unko itna gehra sadma lagega ki woh ek hafte ke andar unko bhi dil ka daura padega aur woh bhi mujhe is duniya mein akele chhodkar chale jayenge."
Armaan samajh gaya tha ki uski sauteli maa ne ne uski poori family ko khatam karke unki daulat hatiyae ka plan banaya tha. Use bahot dard ho raha tha. Bhookh bhi lagi thi. Lekin us se jyada gussa tha uske andar.
"Toh yeh sab tune paise ke liye kiya?" Armaan gusse se bola, "Saali gutter ki raand, paise ke liye meri beqasoor maa ko maar daala, mujhe drug addict bana diya, itna torture kiya, aur teri itni himmat ki papa ko bhi maar daalne ki dhamki de rahi hai? Ab main bhi dekhta hun ki jis daulat ke tu sapne dekh rahi hai woh kaise tujhe milti hai. Ek phooti kaudi nahi lagne dunga tere haath!"
Armaan ki aankhon mein ek aag thi. Woh aurat muskurayi aur Armaan ke baal pakadke woh sariya uski aankh ke paas le aayi. "Beta zinda rahega to kuch kar payega na?" woh boli, "Chahu to isiliye waqt teri yeh do khoobsoorat aankehin fod du, phir kis kaam aayegi tere yeh karodon ki daulat? Aankhein neechi kar, suar kahin ke!"
Woh sariya Armaan ki aankh on ke itne nazdeek padki hui thi ki Armaan shaant ho gaya. Woh samajh gaya ki is waqt woh ladhne ki position mein nahi tha. Usne apni aankhein neechi kar di.
"Chal ab woh roti kha," woh aurat boli, "Kya zamana aa gaya hai. Maa ke haathon ka bana khana accha nahi lagta aaj kal ke bigde hue baachon ko."
Armaan bas use gusse se ghoorta raha.
"Nahi khayega?" woh aurat haskar boli, "Theek hai mat kha. Chuhe kha lenge. Aaj ke baad nahi laungi tere liye khana. Phir bhookh se tadpega tab akal thikane aayegi."
Usne woh roti uthake ek taraf phenk di aur kuch chuhe use khane lag gaye. Usne light bujha di, aur Armaan ko bhookh aur dard se tadapne ke liye chhod diya.
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Pankhudi ne dekha ki Armaan uski baahon mein aankhein munde leta hai aur kaanp raha hai. Usne pyaar se haath phera use sar par. Armaan ne aankhein kholi to uski aankhon mein aansu the. Pankhudi ne pehli baar Armaan ki aankhon mein aansu dekhe.
"Kya tum theek ho?" Pankhudi ne bade pyaar se poocha.
"Nahi, Pankhudi," Armaan ne kaapnti hui awaz me jawab diya, "Maine theek nahi hun, main bilkul uske jaisa ban gaya hun."
"Kiske jaisa?" Pankhudi ne poocha.
Armaan ne koi jawab nahi diya. Woh bas Pankhudi ko apni baahon me liye, annkhein moonde leta raha.